Why I Started Blogging
Hello friends! Todays blog isn’t fashion/beauty related but a lifestyle blog, MY lifestyle. When I started this blog I wanted to help inspire and empower all women with my fashion & beauty tips. I’ve always loved clothes, and how a good outfit can help you feel so much more confident. Helping women feel better about themselves has always made me feel good, which is why I decided to become a hairstylist! I LOVE giving someone a whole new do and just see how much better they feel about themselves.
The second reason, was to inspire women with similar struggles as I. I was diagnosed with kidney failure at the age of 13, and ever since it’s been a hell of a ride. In and out of hospitals, almost failed my sophomore year of high school, since I missed like half the school year when I got my transplant, (I graduated in time though, shoutout to my class of ’09!) and just when I thought life was “normal”, had my transplant for 12 years had managed to stay out of the hospital for the most part. Got a job at a great salon, got a dog and moved in with my boyfriend, my transplant fails. Yup, gone.
Now, I’m on peritoneal dialysis. Basically I hook up to a machine every night for 12 hours, that machine pumps sugar water through a catheter in my stomach and that liquid removes the toxins and fluids your kidneys usually would. I’m not going to lie, the first week I went back on dialysis, was really hard, emotionally. I couldn’t help but wonder why me? I mean, I knew it was going to happen eventually. Kidney transplants aren’t forever, but how can you honestly be ready to go through it all over again? It’s like God gives you 10 good years, then you feel shitty for 2 and then your 13th year you’re basically dead and need a machine to survive, and then it happens again. I’m hoping that my next transplant lasts longer just to break the 13 year cycle.
This isn’t a pity party post though, as much as it sounds like it. Because during that week I spent unhappy with me, my body and with God for what I was going through AGAIN! I realized I’m freaking alive!! Why am I unhappy? thank you God for creating such smart people that created this machine that not only gave me a second chance, but a third chance at life!! I’ve been given 28 years so far and I’d be lying if I’ve said I haven’t made the most of it. I’ve managed to travel (even on dialysis), I’ve spent my 28 years loving my awesome parents and my gigantic family, met so many great friends and my super supportive boyfriend.